Vent..... ;)

This blog is seriously the best way for me to vent....here goes.

1. Why must I be soooo impatient?
Case in point: I want a BABY! I don't want to wait until may, I want to do it NOW! But then I have this nagging voice in the back of my head telling me to wait. This is where it gets frustrating because I know I should wait and I know in the end I will. Sometimes I wish I could give up all attempts at being responsible and just go with what my heart is telling me to do! But, when there is a child involved this IS NOT an option. I have seriously been ready for this emotionally for such a long time. But, I know John and I have to do the right thing. I am going to graduate whether I like it or not and if God has other plans in store for me...they will happen. I dream about babies, I see PREGNANT people EVERYWHERE (One day I texted Mickey and told her that I think they are all following me!! Lol) I am frequently in tears because I don't want to wait anymore...........but I only have 3 more months to wait. We are excited and inexplicably ready to make an addition to our family.

2. School is tedious.
Is it hard....no not really. I just don't want to do the work anymore! My 5 year plan is wearing on me! I find myself in really bad moods just saying to myself "Why oh Why am I doing this crap?" Oh yeah it's because I need to if I want to make a good life for myself in the future.....

3. God is Great!
Natural Family Planning has changed mine and John's life. So many people said it wouldn't work and so many tears were shed in the days leading up to the wedding while arguing with family telling them it would all be okay. That I wouldn't get pregnant if I was preventing it and if I did it's because God had GREATER plans in store. I saw a sign the other day that said write your lifes plan in pencil and give God the eraser. It is so true. Let go and let God. John and I have been so diligent about going to church and it is like water now. I need it to survive. Communion is something I need to survive..........it is spiritual and personal in ways I never could have imagined. It makes me feel complete. I am happy to say that John and I have been pregnancy free since our wedding and NFP has worked. Not only have we been able to prevent pregnancy but we have been able to enrich our marriage. We have respect for each other and we have communication skills that exceed our expectations. Don't get me wrong....WE DEFINITLEY have our days but we work through them. We feel like we have been set free.

Peeves

I pray every morning that I work that God will give me patience with clients and my work partners. But sometimes it become unbelievably difficult. People get mad at you for doing things that are out of your hands, things that are an integral part of your JOB! Welcome to customer service....... As much as I want to dive into detail about customers that drive me crazy, I won't and probably shouldnt. However, it never ceases to amaze me how seriously juvenille some people are and how mad they get for the smallest things.

On another note.......I will never understand why people roll down their windows and cuss at someone when driving for something that wasn't even your fault. There was no yield sign buddy!

Valentine's Day

So my husband is so sweet! He got a picture of us developed from the TUX and TENNIS event and we are going to get it framed. When you get married all of the little things mean the most. At a time when we are broke and saving every penny to buy a fridge he does something small on Valentine's day and I appreciate it more than anything!

We went to the house today and stayed for about 2 hours showing my parents and in- laws! We sat there just planning where things would go and I just let my imagination run WiLd! These next 5 weeks can't pass fast enough.

I am so happy another week is coming up! My past week was an emotional roller coaster as I was three days late and sure I was pregnant. After 2 neg. pregnancy tests and finding out I wasn't pregnant I was crushed! But I am much better now that I am back on track and just focused on the tasks at hand! Monday is my first Spirit, Morale, and Traditions committee meeting! I am very nervous because I have never chaired any type of committe! I also start my field based work on tuesday with 1st graders! We are in the homestretch now folks! :) Only 2 more semesters! I can't wait!

Signing off for now! :)